Rescue Me

Just got word that my Great Grandmother died last Thursday and I’m just now finding out. I don’t know why my family does stuff like that. I guess they feel that since i’m far away that I can’t come home anyway so short of notice, so I guess they just don’t bother to tell me. Still that’s still “jacked” up for lack of more useful words. She was 91 years old. WoW I pray that i’ll be able to live such a long life. My great grandfather, her husband passed away in late August, and I honestly think they both died of a broken heart. He was in a nursing home, b/c he fell down and hurt himself earlier this year and she was still in the house. They were so independent and were so much in love. I hope to have a love like that someday. RIP grandma, It was a pleasure knowing you, and having our conversations. I will miss you dearly, you and Great Grandpa. Guess I can’t be too upset, your with your boo again! LOL Give him some sugar for me will ya! Love you! Great Grandma Whitehurst 1918-2009.

Wow so much has been going on since I moved away for this new job. Especially in my family. It’s so important to let people know that you love them and that you care about them.

Other news…I’m really falling in “Like” with this man! He’s so unbelievably sweet and caring. I feel something for him, definitely more than a crush. Trying not to make it more than what it is, but I can’t help but smile when I think about him…….

Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness!!!!

Last week I QUIT MY JOB! I know your probably thinking WHAT IN THE WORLD!! Before you get your Long Johns in a bunch, I quit my second job! When my student loans kicked in I felt that I needed a second job just to be comfortable. I wanted something easy to do that could make me a little change. I figured 20 hrs in addition to the 40 hrs/week that I work with my BREAD N BUTTER job wouldn’t be so bad! Well indeed I was wrong!  The hours were crazy, I would be getting home at 11:30pm only to wake up at 6am the next day for my first job. I’m an investigator, so my job is very active, and then to go to a second job afterwards was a pain, but I was sticking it out. Once the holidays started rolling in my hours changed dramatically, this place wanted me to work until 1am on a Friday night. Now I’m a single young woman, and I just didn’t feel that getting off work at 1am for the amount that they were paying was worth it. My weekends were gone, my social life was zero and the money wasn’t the best. I travel a lot on my first job and I found myself drifting off to sleep while on the highway. I started getting deep bags under my eyes, my skin was not looking fresh, I was sluggish. It was even affecting my spriritual life, b/c I could not be as active as I wanted to be in my church. I had already made the decision to quit on December 9th, but I ended that early and quit last friday! It felt great to be able to enjoy my weekend, my friends, and to chill and relax. I know that GOD will support me in everything and that I would be ok. So no worries over here!

Recently I met two great women, that I continue to hang out with. I don’t know about anyone else, but when you move to a totally different place, it can be a little difficult to adjust and meet “like-minded” people. I put an emphasis on “like-minded”.  Anyhoo, they are great so far and I’ve been having a blast! They even go to church with me! YAY! Christian women and men are awesome!

OOOh save the best for last! I just picked up a new book from Barnes & Nobles, yes I love to read!! Educated, sista ova here! LOL I purchased “The Conversation, How Black men and Black woman can have loving relationships” by Hill Harper. Hill Harper attended Harvard with Barack Obama, and he’s best known as an actor, so google him if your feeling as though your not up to speed. He has two New York Best Sellers entitled “Letters to a young Brotha”, and “Letters to a Young Sista”. Ok now THE CONVERSATION is a great read so far! It’s not your average self help book that has that Oprahesque, or Dr. Phil feeling to it. It really goes down to the root of the problem within the black community, and he interviews real black people. It’s Vibrant, Shocking, Sad,Happy, Hopeful, all mixed in together. I highly recommend this book.  There is a passage in the book where it talks about gender roles, and how you should make your own rules and do what works for you. I think that is so true, cuz I truly feel that you could potentially miss out on a great person, by following someone else’s rules. Well i’m done for now. Hope you enjoyed! Be blessed!

LET GO AND LET FLOW

Happy Sunday Everyone!! I hope you enjoy your Sunday’s as much as I do. Sundays serve as a day of peace and relaxation for me! This morning I woke up late for church! I usually like to leave my apartment around 9:45am for church because I like to beat Boston traffic. Sooo I wound up not hearing my alarm and waking up at 9:30am….so I was really scrambling. Not to mention it was raining cats and dogs!! I didn’t know what I was going to wear to church, my fro was matted to my head, and I still needed to go to the ATM to get money so that I could tithe.  I finally decided to wear my black lace shirt with a red and black cheetah cardigan (my fave) paired with Ash grey Editior dress pants! Yeah I Stay Fresh for church! LOL  I decided to wear my hair in a Frohawk! I love the looks that I can achieve with my natural hair! I’m Frolicious!<<<<HAHHAHA!  

Church was awesome. It was my pastor’s 28th pastoral anniversary and his son spoke the message for today. It was awesome. He spoke about “Making Room” for Jesus to come into your life and turn your life around for the better! It really spoke to me. He spoke about how Jesus is always with you so do not be afraid to let him into your life. I won’t go into the whole message that he spoke but I know that it changed my outlook on how I view my Christian life.

In other news, tomorrow serves as the beginning of another work week and I must say that I AM READY!! I just have this great desire to succeed and be great in all that I do! I procrastinated this weekend and didn’t focus on this report I had to write for my job, but it will be done tonight! I don’t care how long it’s going to take me! Gotta stay focused.

Vibin’ to Teedra Moses!! She is so underrated! Just heard from a “fella” I’m diggin’…yeah this one is definitely on my radar. He’s a sweet guy, cutie, and intriging. I have no expectations right now, and I like that. I’m just letting go and letting this feeling I have Flow!

GOD Keeps Blessing Me

GOD is soooo good! My family is well, my career is on the right path, and i’m still alive! May not have everything that I want, but I have everything that I need!  Turns out I may not need this second job as much as I thought that I did! It would be very nice to go back to the days where I could relax on my Saturdays and Sundays and focus more time on worship.  This new lifestyle i’ve adopted has been very good for me. Living the Christian life is hard but it is well worth it. I wouldn’t trade it for anything, and although i’m not perfect, I try my hardest to live the life that would be pleasing to my Lord and Savior.So clearly I have been sleeping on Hezekiah Walker’s gospel music. He is the truth. He is on heavy rotation on www.pandora.com when i’m  sitting in my cubicle at work.  Starting my day off with devotion is soo fulfilling.

I’m finally starting to succumb to this cold weather here in Massachusetts. I feel myself getting a little congested and sick. UGH! I so don’t need to be sick! I need to be healthy! Guess I’ll rack up on the OJ on payday. So I found a Wholefoods store near where I live! AHH I’m so excited. I want to be more healthy so i’m gonna check out that store.  I’m drinking more water and eating a lot of fruit. Now I just need to work out more. I’ve been slacking in that area.  Christmas is almost here, and that means soon I’ll be home with my family! Ahhh how I miss them! THey are the bomb! I just miss VA period!  The countdown has begun!

Cold N Cuddle Time :)

Last night  I had a blast at my YP meeting! It was awesome! So it’s the beginning of October and it’s starting to get a little chilly. It’s officially COLD N CUDDLE TIME GUYS!!!!  Perfect time to have a boo, which I have not, however there is this guy that I am HEAVILY INTERESTED IN. I haven’t felt this way for someone in a minute! Shoot! When I first saw him I thought he was attractive, but then as I saw more of him I saw his passion for GOD, and how he is very active in my church. He’s not a youth pastor or anything but he is into the music scene at church.  He’s different from any other guy I’ve ever had a crush on. There is just one problem. I don’t know if he knows I exist! HHHAHA! Yeah he has seen me for sure but I know he has no idea that I have a thing for him.  I think we’ve had eye contact, but who knows! I need to just have one convo with him and then I’ll feel much better. LOL I don’t want to get my hopes up all high though cuz he may just have a girlfriend! So the funny thing is that the guy’s name is Justin. Yup he has the exact same name as my ex, but I mean it’s all good though! HAA!  So I’m smitten guys!! AHHHH!!! I am not usually smitten by people! This feeling is crazy! I see him Sundays, Wednesdays, Thursdays and I may just see him tomorrow! (Keeping my fingers crossed). Ok back to reality! I’m not going to get pressed over him, b/c it might not ever pop off, but GOD knows I want it to!  Hot Cocoa w/ Marshmallows and a Tyler Perry movie on the couch sounds good to me! LOL

In other news, my fro is really growing and it looks great! I’ve been getting a lot of compliments. I’ve even served as an inspiration to others to go natural! YAY!! Met a soror yesterday that wants me to get into the grad chapter where I am. I’m very interested! I need to get back active! Tye tribbett concert is tomorrow! Can’t wait! Hope I see my Choir Crush! Signing off now>>Gotta get back to this money. Be blessed!

R.I.P. Derrion Albert

So I’m sitting here streaming Algebra on Imeem.com!! She is the truth! So relaxing to listen to her! I don’t know if you all have heard of what happened at a Chicago High School last Thursday! A sixteen year old black honor student by the name of Derrion Albert was viciously beaten to death by a group of men with two by four wooden planks! The video is all over the internet. First off when I first viewed this video I felt the urge to cry! I mean how could someone do that to another human being. What really made me upset was that it was black on black crime! I mean we already have a history of oppression and then you see something so horrific as this and it breaks your heart. I immediately became angry, and sad when I viewed that video. I felt for the family. I thought about my two brothers! My two brothers are my world! I love them to death even though we fight sometimes. When I was growing up, my brothers and I would fight but you better believe if anyone messed with us, we all came hard to each other’s rescue! I would be going crazy right now if that happened to my brothers. What really disturbed me when watching the video is that no one tried to help Derrion! After the fight some students picked his limp body up and brought him into the school, they were screaming for him to get up and he was unresponsive. They had no idea that Derrion was already dead! My heart is still aching for Derrion and his family! I am so upset! I will be praying for his family! I mean this young man was just alive last Thursday and now he is gone! I’m sick of all of the violence. The authorities have found three of the guys who were caught on tape beating Derrion and they are in custody being charged as adults. They range in age from 16-19 years of age! They should get just what they deserve. I believe in the death penalty on this one! I mean it was a senseless act! They knew that boy was dead when they hit him with that 2X4 and then had the nerve to kick him afterwards and continue to beat him! Other guys got hit with the 2X4′s as well but Derrion was the only one who died! I feel for his mother and family!  GOD IS COMING BACK!! I hope your life is right! I hope you are saved!

I’m really feeling some sort of way about this Derrion Albert story, it just hits so close to home for me! I think i’m gonna sign off! Peace and Blessings!

New Beginnings

So it definitely has been a minute since I have been up here! The job is going pretty good, I’m learning a lot and I’m actually feeling comfortable with doing independent inspections! YAY ME!!  Soo I’ve joined the Young Professionals group at my church! Man I love my church family! They along with GOD and my family and friends keep me sane! They really bring me back to reality.  I’m still trying to get  used to this new life of mine! It can get a lil lonely sometimes even though I do have friends up here! Had a few problems on the second job, but that job is only temporary so I’m not even worried about it! I won’t let it get me down!

I realized that I hadn’t really realized how “great” of a person I was. I mean it was like I had forgotten. Someone really reminded me of how awesome I was, and I appreciate him for that! You know sometimes you just need a little reminder! LOL This person just let me know that I was a beautiful person inside and out and it really made me think! It made me realize that their is no reason for me to be down at all, because I am extremely blessed, a God fearing woman, young and successful, and just a beautiful person inside and out!  No more thinking that failed relationships were my fault, or second guessing myself, or pondering on the past. It’s time for a NEW BEGINNING!! I must say I am SOOO EXCITED about pursuing some very important goals of mine! I’m so ready to throw myself into things that I am very passionate about!  I’m growing so much as a woman and I’m really realizing what is important in this life! Having that foundation with GOD is so important, and although it can be very hard to put all your trust in him, we must! I admit that I am still struggling with that myself, but I am getting better day by day! So before I sign off, I just want to encourage everyone to be content in your circumstance and trust in GOD! Be safe and be blessed!!

ARE YOU THE “REAL THING”?????

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

So I’m just vibin’ to my good ole safety Jill Scott, Jilly fromPhilly!! LOL  I don’t know about you guys but Jill Scott really knows how to convey what a “Sista” is going through!  Ok so i’m going off topic..my bad guys! HEE HEE! So this blog is addressing Women and Relationships. I find a lot of women settling for less when it comes to relationships. It seems as if we don’t really know our worth anymore. I admit, I have fell victim to this very thing. Over the past 9 months I have really grown as a woman, and I just want to share my thoughts on this topic. ARE YOU THE REAL THING? This title addresses a lot of questions that I have for us women.  1. Are you deviating from who you really are when you are dating, or in a relationship?  2. Are you settling for less?  3. Are you doing things that you wouldn’t normally do, hoping that the guy will love you as much as you love him? 4. Are you happy? 5. Do you know your WORTH?    Ladies it is very important for us to know ourselves and be true to ourselves!! This is the only way that we can truly be happy with things that go on in our lives.  In my past relationships I have been guilty of accepting bullS#$! I have been guilty of holding on to relationships when I knew I should have let it go a LONG TIME AGO! I have been blinded by love before.  I didn’t realize my worth!!!  Had I have realized my worth I wouldn’t have accepted bull and I would have been able to avoid the hurt that came later on. With that being said, I want to elaborate on what the “REAL THING” is.  Being the “REAL THING”, is saying that you know who you are and what you can bring to the table. You hold your head up high and you don’t accept BULL from any man. You realize that you are FANTASTIC, BEAUTIFUL, LOVING, CARING, DESERVING! Deserving is very big to me! You should feel as if you deserve to be ADORED!!  This is what I realize now about myself. I’m not being conceited when I say that I feel like I’m FABULOUS and a BEAUTIFUL person. When you start loving yourself, you will not allow anyone to disrespect you, or treat you as if you are not a queen.  Also keep in mind who you are attracting. Remember “LIKE ATTRACTS LIKE”. If you are attracting THUGS, INSECURE MEN, LAMES,etc, then you must take a step back from the situation and see if there is something in you that is making these guys come to you as if you are a Thug, Insecure, Lame magnet!  Also make sure you figure out why you deal with these men.  I’ve also noticed that some women don’t realize when a man is just NOT THAT INTO YOU!  I have come up with a short list of some facts that will allow women to know if the man is JUST NOT THAT INTO HER. 1. If he is constantly texting you and never calls, then HONEY HE IS NOT THAT INTO YOU, 2. If he calls you only LATE AT NIGHT  3. If you have not met the Family  4. If he is disrespecting you in anyway  5. If he is late to previously planned engagements, 6. IF he LIES TO YOU!  I’m at a point in my life where I’m transforming into the WOMAN that I want to be! Remember that one is not born a woman, one becomes one!   Strive to be a woman of Substance! I want to tell all the Single Ladies out there, to be Patient, Wait on GOD for your KING! Please, Please do not settle! Do not put yourself on a timeline, you will just be disappointed for not acheiving what you want in your designated timeframe.  WOMEN if you don’t agree with anything that i’m saying please just listen to this one point…Please do not chase after a man!! Remember men are the hunters. Most men will tell you that the woman that they were in love with, or are currently in love with happened as a result of them chasing after that woman.  

I know that I am the “REAL THING”, but that doesn’t mean that I am perfect. I realize that there are some things about myself that I need to work on as well in order to have a loving, relationship. In my next relationship, I’m gonna stay true to myself. I’m gonna love myself more. I’m going to take my time, I mean what’s the rush?? Most of all i’m going to listen to GOD! No relationship can persevere without both parties acknowledging GOD, and going to GOD in prayer together!  Without God being in the relationship, there is no foundation! I wrote this blog on a whim, so forgive me if I digressed while I was writing this. Please comment and subscribe! Be blessed!

Being Black and a Young Professional

Last night as I was having dinner with one of my sorority sisters we discussed the struggles that young professionals endure in the workplace. I can only speak for myself when I say that being a Young Professional has it’s bumps in the road. After graduating from Alabama A&M University last December and receiving a career offer three months later I can definitely say that I am blessed. I am so grateful to GOD because my situation could have been a lot different. Getting back to the topic at hand, I voiced my concerns to my sister about the struggles that I have endured while being on the job. As the only young African American woman in my office I have experienced jealousy, rude remarks, inadequate training from assigned mentors, and the list goes on and on. My first day on the job, I had someone ask me “So how did you get this job?”  Now this comment really struck a nerve, but mama taught me better than to snap on someone in the workplace so I politely said, “It was a rather simple process, I interviewed with the Agency, and they accepted me for the position.” I couldn’t help but think ” Does this guy think that since I’m the only black woman on the job, that I must have received this job through AFFIRMATIVE ACTION?!!”  It has even come down to my hair. When I first started working at the agency I was pressing my hair straight, then I rocked Kinky twists which brought a lot of comments. I had co-workers saying “So how are you going to wash that?”  and “What made you decide to get that in your hair?” WERE THEY SERIOUS WITH THOSE COMMENTS!! Last Friday I decided to go natural. After not receiving relaxers for a whole year I took the liberty to cut off all my hair and sport a TWA. For those of you who don’t know it’s an acronym for TEENY WEENY AFRO! I personally am in LOVE with my new Doo and I wear it proudly! On Monday I walk into the office with many people gawking in surprise to my latest Doo! So one person just had to get ignorant and say “SO YOU JUST GOT TIRED OF YOUR EXTENSIONS OR WHAT?” It never fails, someone always has to be the ignorant one and make a joke!  Let’s not even get on the topic of gossiping in the workplace. I could go on and on. It’s to the point where I don’t even eat in the break room because it is a breeding ground for gossip and I refuse to be involved in it. These are just a few problems that I have dealt with while being a young professional. If I wrote everything that goes on I would run out of space.  HA! Moving 12 hrs away to embark on a new career has it’s challenges especially if you are a young African American Young Professional. You really have to have tough skin, and know your value and what you can bring to the table. It’s best to not entertain ignorant people. Your first year in your career should involve you soaking up as much information as you can, observing interactions b/t co-workers, and keeping your mouth shut!  Be a mystery! Let your other co-workers get involved in the irrelevant mumbo jumbo of gossiping.  Focus on your job, because at the end of the day what matters is Can you Deliver! Keeping God in my life has definitely kept me sane. I’m not one to force my beliefs on anyone but I give God all the credit for me not wanting to go off on someone and lose my job!  If you are fresh out of college and are a young professional let me know what issues that you have dealt with on the job. Be blessed!